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A slice of the life

1. Duchezz was installed as Matron of Winfield Chapter #418, Order of the Eastern Star of the State of New York last night. Her Patron, who is a friend of ours, and was a friend of Morguhn's, disappeared just as he was to be installed, and reappeared dressed as a knight, complete with crested helm, coif, halbrek, chausses, mantle, and ceremonial sword (he borrowed them from his Scotish Rite [the Shriners] temple), in order to "Make Right Worthy Loie feel more at home." It was a wonderful, touching, funny gesture, especially since the day before he fell Morguhn had decided he would join our Chapter so he could be Patron with her. The mantle was even green.

2. I got my report (I'm the chapter historian) written and delivered. Four pages, single spaced, and no one ever complains it's too long, so I guess I must be doing something right. Of course that meant no school related work got done yesterday between 3 and chapter. And we ran very long, so no work got done when I got home. I either need a longer pipe on my snorkle or to just inhale the damn water and get it over with.

3. Had a conversation of sorts, small one, with someone who has been thoughtless and unkind lately, about that thoughtlessness and unkindness. It is a start, but I am not hopeful. The most tangible result of the conversation was a nightmare that was clearly, directly, connected.

4. I'm fairly convinced I have angered two ladies, one across the continent and one somewhat closer, and I'm not sure exactly what I did or how to fix it. :-(

5. Fairly convinced I am not only suffering from clinical depression but that its shopping buddy paranoia has come along for the trip.

6. Tomorrow comes the great stove adventure. The delivery people "don't coordinate with third parties" and the gas company "would have been happy to coordinate when we called, but we "didn't give us a time range then." Um, because ... oh, never mind. *Sigh*

7. I would really, really, really like to remember what fun is--fun without interpersonal dramah undertones, awkward revelations, guilt about squandered time....Maybe in December. I can hope.

8. By the way--you all have saved my sanity for the last 14 months. Thank you.


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Nov. 19th, 2009 11:52 am (UTC)
On #5--are you getting treatment? I have something like the same condition, and yes, treatment helps.
Nov. 19th, 2009 12:05 pm (UTC)
After reading about hundmathr's mom this morning, I have decided to stop whining and be thankful for all that I have. A great deal of what I am most lucky in is my friends, and you are at the top of the list. I hope that we can at least have enough time to hug at Yule time. It might take 8 hours or more of hugging to Make Things Better. So be it. XOXOXOXO
Nov. 19th, 2009 12:42 pm (UTC)
#1: That was cool.

Nov. 19th, 2009 12:47 pm (UTC)
#5: I was doing a little reading on depression and it depresses me. The list of symptoms applies to anyone who is human, but as I read the journals and enjoy all to infrequent real life conversations, it appears that many in my circle are suffering from it. I don't know anything useful about the topic, but I will just say that when I read what you write, you seem to be on the go and overwhelmed. As amazing as you are, can you do everything you seem to expect from yourself? It seems like a lot. When do you get down time or rest time or fun time?

When does it get to be about you and for you?
Nov. 19th, 2009 01:28 pm (UTC)
#1 is awesome!

#5... I have been thinking about checking what services might be available on campus... would something like that work for you? I am thinking that location might be convenient, but not sure 1) what is there, 2) whether faculty & staff can use it, etc. Do you have coverage for that kind of treatment? I am hoping there is free stuff out there for students...

Please hang in there- the world is so much better for having you in it! {LOVE}
Nov. 19th, 2009 02:03 pm (UTC)
oops- didn't realize I wasn't logged in anymore!

the important part was {LOVE}
Nov. 19th, 2009 02:07 pm (UTC)
I've been treading the line between reacting reasonably to circumstances and 'is it chemical' for a bit now. Please get to your doc soonest and get treatment. It's treatable and why on earth should you have to feel bad when it's fixable? So get thee to a doc and then let's all plan your Great Ontario Odessy! As long as you're here I think we can all guarantee solid fun and wild times.
Nov. 19th, 2009 02:10 pm (UTC)
One day I was bitching and whining about the PAIN and how hard it is to walk where I use to dance. Then an old friend rolled up in his wheelchair ,missing a leg. Yeah,maybe the pain Is worth it.
Depression is normal as is some paranoia {I fight it all the time}
You have heard this over and over again .I can not really tell you anything new. Open to us, you and Loie are much loved, please let us Love you.

Peace be with you
Nov. 19th, 2009 10:01 pm (UTC)
So, how about this (and speaking for our family), we are here! Wanna come down and see the Wonderful World of Coca-Cola, amazing Botanical Gardens, beautiful weather (~65 degrees), GA Aquarium, CCN, contrived German recreated community called Helen, and a convertible ride in December? Come and refresh yourselves! Can only drive one person at a time, though...

We have two dogs, two cats and three teens!
Nov. 20th, 2009 02:02 am (UTC)
Hey, I'm expert at the clinical depression thing, if you want to talk about it. And sunlight does help, so I'll endorse that trip to Georgia!
Nov. 21st, 2009 11:42 am (UTC)
#5 and #7---I am sooo there with you, but I think the paranoia is justifiable and it will be may, not december for me. Keeping fingers crossed for you on #3 and #4.
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